Showing posts with label Suicide. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Suicide. Show all posts

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Dance Of The Butterfly

Dance Of The Butterfly

I walked out to the meadow,
Sat beside the hedgerow,
To watch the butterflies
Dance across the endless sky.
Gleaming blade in sweating fist,
Drained the will from ravaged wrist...
Drifted to an empty space,
Met the Mutant face to face.
Surrounded by a ring of black
The final stop, no turning back.
He said I'm just another one
Unaware of what he's done.
Fingered beads strung through his hair.
Fixed me with a mutant stare.
Scratched his nose and shook his head
Stoked the fire, in a whisper said:
"Behold the Monarch Butterfly,
Dancing cross the endless sky.
Behold the Monarch Butterfly,
Searching for a place to die."
Then he stirred the sands
With gnarled hands
Passed a feather cross the fire.
With long dead things conspired
To cleave my tainted heart.
The Mutant smiled a mutant smile
And tore my life apart.
Senses reeling I staggered back,
Swallowed by a ring of black.
Thought I heard my own voice scream
When he unveiled the Monarch's dream.
Heard his voice - "What will you do
When the Monarch's dream is through?"
On the run...
Butterfly.
Into the sun...
Butterfried.
What have I done...
Suicide.

- G. Laidlaw

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Monday, January 10, 2011

Depression, One Size Fits All

The following two original poems by G. Laidlaw look at a condition nobody is immune from. (Even the dead can suffer from it. How many happy ghosts do you hear about?) If you've danced with this dragon, you know just how cruel a master it can be. If you haven't then you have no idea just how bad it can get. Pray it doesn't choose you.

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Gray Today

Drag a cloud across the Sun
Make it rain on everyone
Drain the colors leave just gray
Make the whole World go away

Crush the smile of a circus clown
Pull a rainbow to the ground
Crash an airplane every day
Make the whole World go away

Pour a flood across the Earth
Kill a dream before its birth
Pick a God and to Him pray
Make the whole World go away

Find this poor man take what's his
Make life harder than it is
Fill me up with shades of gray
Make the whole World go away

G. Laidlaw



To The Zoo

She stares into the mirror but she doesn't see her face
Her answer's getting clearer but her question's been erased
So she turns to the closet and picks out the yellow dress
That she burned with a cigarette the last time she confessed
To thoughts obscene
The dirty dreams
That fill the night completely with her screams

Somewhere deep inside herself she knows exactly what to do
Go To The Zoo

She puts on the yellow dress and stares into the mirror
Jumbled colors in a mess but her reflection's getting clearer
So she turns to the razor blade with its edge of gleaming steel
Draws lines across her arm in a moment all too real
Sanguinary rain
Crimson drops of shame
Fall upon her yellow dress
Paint a picture of her pain

Somewhere deep inside herself she knew exactly what to do
Go to the Zoo

G. Laidlaw




"Don't worry, be happy" - Meher Baba